Sitting still and waiting for a change

To occur in this world of cringe

And desolation, lost to the rain

That pours down on the sinners

Who have been living in pain.

For a brief moment, we are a winner,

Until the world suddenly shakes

With anger once again, throwing

Us from our peaceful break

Of forgetting of the world’s fever.

Short Poetry

Poem #1

Frozen rain poured down

Around us, chilling to the bone,

But all I feel is warmth

When I’m with you.

Poem #2

A mind in shambles,

Lost and useless, broken by worthless.

Mind over matter is the saying,

But when the mind is ruined,

What do you do then?

Poem #3

Falling down to my knees

Before you, I beg for mercy

For the sins I have committed,

But I could not control who I am?

Lost Riverbank

I walked down the riverbank,

Lost and lonely in the dark,

Waiting for you to return to me

And my open heart 

But you never returned

And one day I fell, waiting

For you. I landed in the water

And breathed deep, letting the 

Water penetrate deep inside.

Always know you were the

Reason why I fell,

Lonely and broken without you. 

Life in a New World


I have not posted in a long time and that has been due to me having started my new life in a new city, a city more than 9 hours away from my home in Palmview, Texas. There has been so little time to do anything aside from school or work, that I am simply exhausted by the end of the day and want to sleep. That is why there are so many pictures of college students asleep in weird places, they’re so tired that even a desk table can be a bed.

This new life is interesting. I’ve been alone for a few weeks already and I have learned and dealt with so much, dealt with situations I never though I would ever encounter. I have had to meet amazing and outstanding members of the faculty and excellent student leaders. I have even made amazing friends in such a short period of time. I though that I would be alone and scared and afraid; I will generally be standoffish and prevent people from coming near me. Gladly, that didn’t happen and I allowed myself to interact with others. That is a decision I will never regret, meeting all these amazing people has allowed me to have a sense of pride and joy.

This month of being alone has not been without its bumps in the road. There were a few scares with friends, back home and here at my residence hall. There were instances where I though I might lose someone. There had been times where friends never answered our messages or calls and we didn’t know what had happened to them. On a personal level, I guess I can say that I had anxiety for a good few weeks, either my right hand would constantly be shaking or I would feel antsy. My depression hit with a renowned strength and I felt more alone than ever, even when I was surrounded by my friends. I am so grateful for them, to have them be here, the friend from FLOC, a club I am apart of, or the friends in my residence hall. I am so grateful that they’ve been here to support me with being alone and homesick.

Thankfully I still have family, even though majority live over 400 miles away from me. They are there to have my back and support me with my decision to be here; I couldn’t have asked for more and am beyond grateful to have their support.

It is scary being alone, so far away from family. The only real chance I have to see them is Christmas, and even then it may be a struggle. But now is the time for a new life and so I will take the opportunities I have been given and use them to the fullest of my advantage and advance myself to the best of my abilities.

More writing will be coming soon and I am working on two books! One is a second prose and poetry collection and the other is a coming of age novel in epistolary format. Updates will happen and I will be posting writings soon. Au revoir!

Feeling Lost

Lost and broken on the inside

With no place to run and hide,

I hide inside myself, wishing 

For time to stop moving,

If for a brief moment

So i can gather my broken

Self. Torn to shreds lies

My heart and soul, no longer able to fly.

Engulfed by the eternal black

Seeking a way to go back

To my former self

Hoping someone could help.