When you’re going around next to me,
I feel free and weightless, no gravity
In sight letting me fly and see
Across the sky. You granted me sanity,
But whenever you stepped away,
I would fall down from the sky,
The world would fall into a deep gray
And the world let out a solemn sign
For I wanted to fly higher into the sun
Into the rays of light that shined warmth,
Little did I know the rays of sun was a gun
Loaded with bullets of pain and cold.
Why is it that I feel this way around you,
Colors sound lounder,
Lights are more vibrant,
The world feels better when you’re next to me
And becomes dull when I’m away from you,
For once I finally feel free
From the cage in my mind but as soon
As you walk away, the light dies once again
And the soul cries showers of rain,
Longing to have the colors sound louder,
Longing for the lights to be vibrant,
Longing for your healing presence.
Lost emotions that do not exist.
Existence is meaningless within emotion.
Living life disconnected from society
Due to the inability to laugh with someone,
To cry tears with someone,
Incapable of sharing love.
First was the wish to feel,
Then it was just the wish to connect,
Lastly, I just wanted a friend to have
And realize what it meant to connect.
Do not worry my child,
It will be okay
For you to cry when you arrive,
For I will always be here by your side,
Even if we’re thousands of miles apart,
It will always be okay.
I will be there when you cry,
I will be there when you’re heartbroken
I will be there when you’re homesick.
I will always love you,
Do not be afraid.
Do not worry, you’ll be home soon,
Everything will be okay.
I couldn’t imagine,
Because anxiety shook
And I couldn’t
From my head.
I need nothing from you,
No emotion or soul or touch.
Give me nothing to give me everything.
A thousand needles,
A frail and innocent creature,
Nature does not nurture.
Oil and Water
Emptiness. Emptiness is all I feel.
Every fiber within me feels empty;
Hollow cells of existence shine bright.
Knives pierce the frail skin,
Letting blood drip down;
Tears and blood mixing like oil and water.
Why must I care,
Like and love,
Why do I want
To feel romance?
Every time I do,
It hurts all involved;
Friendships burned and lost,
Bridges turned to ash.
But lack of emotion
Destroys all I touch.