I was lost and weak,
Hiding in the shadows,
Down in dust;
Step by step
I walked to find
A little peace and love,
I never knew how to find
Hope and light
To bring me out of shadows.
Lost and weak
Buried in dust
I couldn’t walk away
From the darkness,
Where no light shined,
Where no light shined and darkness grew
Within a lost heart, where all hope died
And made me a puppet for you.
In the darkness the creature scurries away, hiding from me in the shadows, creeping in the pustulant night. Every step I take, it takes one too. Following and creeping behind. Tentacles writhing to taste my flesh.
I cannot see it. Not even the eyes. Yet, I know it follows. It lies behind every door, lurking in the shadows. With each step, it waits behind, waiting for one mistake. Waiting to taste my blood. Waiting to drink from the chalice the gift of life.
I will not let it take me. Faster I walk down the hall, past the chandeliers and paintings. Everywhere I look, the shadows retreat. It is ahead of me now! Waiting for me to fall into its bloody arms, every inch of its skin ready to rip my flesh apart.
Faster I walk. Faster. If I slow down now, it will surely catch me. I can feel the walls pressing closer, ready to feed me to that monster.
I reach the end of the corridor, at the tall glass window. I see the full moon in the eternal sky, commanding the attention of all. I turn back and see it in its full form, the demon of my dreams. It forms and looks back at me. I see the mercury eyes, the eyes of malice and intent to kill. The eyes of lust.
Panicking, I reach behind me, but all I feel is the lever to open the window. Might as well. I will not let this monster take me. I will not allow my blood to be used to paint these halls red. I will let the ocean mix with my blood, and set myself free in the sea.
I beg for forgiveness
For my actions,
I cannot help who I am.
Follow me through the stars,
Where your soul outshines
Even the brightest of them all.
In the darkness of life,
My light succumbs
And dies with the hope
Revolving in the deep darkness
Sits the young creature filled with madness,
Curled up in pain and fear
Of their true power and strength.
Filled with rage, covered in black,
The creature sits and waits,
Waits before the blood boils
And unleashes wrath unto
The sorry souls in the path.
It is not done out of hate,
But out of sorrow for the world,
For the decimated and ruined world
That no one should continue to live in.
Looking upon you, I saw many great things. Great and terrible things!
It was in your eyes from the beginning. From the moment you came into life, the darkness in your eyes was clearer than water. It seemed as if your soul swam in hatred and sin.
How could it though? You haven’t turned a year yet.
But the pain you brought me when you were born was beyond normal. My intestines were ripped apart when you left. Several organs were torn when you exited me.
Every animal that has come by has died on the lawn. The only thing that hasn’t, and it even thrives in your presence, is that horrid snake! It was curled next to you one night, and has never left since.
Anything living brought into this home becomes sick or dies. Any time flowers are brought, they wilt instantly. I have been unable to recover from your birth; infections always pop up, no matter how often I am treated. Your father has been unable to breath, having several asthma attacks everyday, something he never had before.
What to do with you demon? I do not know.. You cannot be kept for long, that is for sure.
Maybe the woods? For sure some animal needs some food.
Or the water? Get enough water blessed and have you drown. I remember that day we took you for your baptism, the church turned into vessel of darkness and we were banned.
That may work indeed.
I am sorry my baby boy, but this hell cannot continue. It will come to an end. Remember though, we will always love you.
Depictions of love and romance
Surround us all, flooding the senses,
Making the empty desire
What is unattainable
To the different and odd,
Those that cannot enjoy
The comfort of normal love
Because of separate desires.
In the desolate shadows,
The lonely sparrow sang,
Awaiting a sweet reply,
But receiving only deadly silence.
Leaves fall and so do hearts;
In the cold of winter
Not even fire can survive.
Dark wings of wrath
Sweep down on earth
And breathe absolute havoc.
Orbiting the stars, I feel
Lighter than a million feathers,
But only when I am with you.
Feeling free and flying high
Let us go home tonight.
Black mirror of mine,
Gaze deep within
And witness my sorrow.